One of the hardest things I will have to do in my life so far:
I have to leave my son for a week. No physical contact, no being near him, only skype & face time.
This is not optional, this was not an easy choice.
My son deserves a healthy mommy to take good care of him, take him to the park, play with him, cook him good meals, and all that good stuff.
I have had a thyroid problem for several years, over 10 years even. It has been laying low, and not really done anything in that 10 years. I haven't been on medication for it. I have a rather large nodule, but it hadn't changed in size at all.... that is until this last year. Now, I am trying to get healthy, for my son and for any future children we might have. I have had low energy for several years, spells of anxiety, which all may be attributed to my thyroid. Add on top of that a large growing nodule in my neck that is starting to cause issues with swallowing... I think it's time.
I had two choices... and this was a VERY hard decision. Some of you may not agree with my choice, but it is what it is. I had to choose between radioactive iodine treatment (RAI) or surgery. I have chosen to go with RAI. There are several factors that led to this decision. It requires I will have to be away from children for at least a week. The easiest way to do this is to remove me from the household for a week. I couldn't bear the thought of making my son leave his house and his mom & dad for the duration, so he will be staying here with my mother in law, and my hubby when he is not at work. I will be staying at a relative's house.
I know my son will miss me, I mean, he has me all day long. He misses me when I go to somewhere and leave him at home with my husband. I'm just glad he is young enough that he shouldn't remember me leaving him for so long. I will miss him dearly. I am thankful for things like skype and face time. This means I will actually be able to see and talk to my son during this time.
If any of you have suggestions of what I can do to make this easier, please leave a comment. I appreciate it.
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